Monday, October 9, 2023

Undercurrent

When we are young

playing at the shore 

we are often told 

"beware the undertow"

That's what drowns little kids

as their mothers look on

from the beach, squinting,

saluting the sun.

But as adults, 

no guardian yells from the beach

"beware the undercurrent"

The undercurrent 

is what drowns adults,

as no one watches from afar.

 

 ~Jennifer Miller

 


Tuesday, June 21, 2022

FREE

 

.…until one day,

I noticed the door was open,

so I walked out of the cage.


6/21/2022

by Jennifer 

Sunday, December 5, 2021

Transcending

Conscious stream of thought

Unconscious stream of thought

Conscious stream of words

Unconscious stream of words

For a Sunday, on a planet

Orbiting a star

Where everything means something

And everything means nothing

 

Here we go

Transcend.

Too many words

Too many thoughts

Too much of everything

 

Transcend.

Understanding the Nihlist

The stoic, the sceptic

And yet this is a spiritual

Awakening

When everything explodes

All at once

Into nothingness

like the Big bang

And then it’s all gone

like the universe, maybe


~Jenny Miller

 

Tuesday, December 22, 2020

 

I guess what we mourn over in midlife is not the past people and places of our youth, but the loss of our naïve hearts and minds. ~Jenny Miller

Monday, November 30, 2020










We shrug off the weary garment

and fly home to God

Where first, as we fly through

the endless expanse of the stars

and space,

through an endless universe, universes,

past planets, such beautiful shining

brightness against the dark --

On our way we are told perhaps

"Guess what - want to know the secret?"

"Yes" we answer.


- by Jenny Miller

#1 Autumn: 2020 ~ Ornamental Horticulture ~Koelreuteria bipinnata

 








There is a certain kind of tree

called a Chinese Lantern

because it has foliage in the fall

that looks like colorful Chinese

lanterns

and they sway softly

in the breeze.


-by Jenny Miller

Sunday, October 25, 2020

Bayberry Candles

The scent of Bayberry candles

will forever bring me back to a time

of deciduous woods,

a colonial white house,

a crisp and colorful fall

and the burnt orange,

warm simplicity 

of the seventies.


-by Jenny Miller

On the Road Home

How can I be
authenticated
as I am
as I am
as you are
as you are

How can I be
authenticated
in all things
to all people
I encounter
on the road home.

-by Jenny Miller
written 7/15/2020

Wednesday, April 29, 2020

COVE

All that was known is gone.
As you were sleeping,
Life went on.

The pumpkins
the frost
the flowers
all lost.

All is in a daze
As you lose track
of days.

It seems everything
Now measured
All in the past.
How long will this last?

Will there still be seasons?
Will there still be holidays,
birthdays, remembrances,
Celebrations?

It feels all hope is lost
And hands are stuck,
on clocks.

by Jenny Miller
4/29/2020

Tuesday, March 31, 2020

Perhaps?

Perhaps
at times
my propensity
to seem oblivious
and aloof
is mistaken for
things going un-noticed.

This is not true.

Perhaps
at times
the smile on my face
is mistaken for
a disconnected
sophomoric
response to
a serious or sensitive
matter.

This also is not true.

Sometimes people make a choice
to react in certain ways
so as to attempt to dispel
some tension or pain
for others
as well as themselves.

Perhaps at times I seem to make light
when something is heavy
or
I seem to laugh
when there should be a silent pause.
What else to do? I often do not know.

But in my heart I am there with you,
the exact same as you
matching you
and I know.
I feel what you feel
and I can assure you.
In my heart, in my soul
this is the truth.
you are not alone.
I hold your feelings, I hold your hand,
I am sorry, I empathize, I bleed inside for it all.
I hold your hand, I love you.

Perhaps, you did not know.

~by Jenny Miller

Wednesday, March 25, 2020

A Part of Everything is Here In Me


Sitting here

Starting out the window

Listening to John Denver’s Season Suite

Watching the delicate new leaves

Dance in the wind against a cloudy sky

I imagine in my mind

They are dancing and swaying to the music

Just for me

Because I don’t know what else to do

Understand that statement

In the right context

I don’t know what else to do

In this moment except to see the beauty

Of nature

Going on

Entertaining, comforting.

by Jenny Miller

Monday, February 10, 2020

The Real #MeToo Movement

The real #MeToo movement
is that we are all humans.

Fragile
with hearts.

I love reading others thoughts
and poetry and finding out
that I am not alone in the
phenomenon of disappointments,
plans that don't work out
and heartache.

Finding out I am not alone
in having good days and bad,
happiness and sorrow.

In needing to house, feed and clothe myself,
all the while navigating other humans
like me.

At the end of the day
we are all a myriad of hashtags.
All the same ones.

by Jenny Miller
2/10/2020

Thursday, January 30, 2020

Half Winter

There are half the leaves
still clinging,
to the tree this year

Half cold, half warm days
half overcast, half sunny

Half hopes for Spring
But what will happen
to half the leaves
still hanging on?

Half is better than nothing,
yet still not whole.

Never before have I seen
a half winter
such a long fall
or an early Spring.

by Jenny Miller
1/30/2020

Tuesday, January 14, 2020

Vulnerability

I realized today
that I know
all about
my own vulnerability
but know little
of yours.

Have not stopped
to consider enough
that you are
vulnerable too
by default
as you are a human
with a heart
wants, needs, dreams.

I knew all of the
emotional anatomy part.
But did not often enough
stop to think about
the vulnerability part
and what that means.

I love you.

by Jenny Miller
1/14/20

Late Winter

It is the season of dreaming.
Cold, wet, rainy.
Darkness, semi-hibernation.
Thoughts turn inward, life slows down.
Everyone is in a state of semi-operation.
Time to nestle in your nests,
And wait out the storms.
Time to move slowly.
Give ourselves a break from pushing forward,
And just be.
To seek contentment---that elusive bliss.
Don’t forget to look around,
To see the beauty in it all.
The misty covered mountains--
Those dark friends who are resting this time of year too.
The trees who are bare and dreaming
Of fragrant new buds of pink, yellow and green.
The sound of the pit-pat of  the rain in the stillness.
Be quiet inside so you can hear the voice--
His voice speaking to you.
It is comforting to know
We are all just human and in this together.
We are all tired, slow, inside and cold,
Trying to get warm after another day and another night,
Untill she, in all her glory rises from the depths
And greets us smiling and smelling of mothers’ perfume,
Warming us with her crown,
Comforting us with her gentle breeze caress.
Taking off our jackets, sweaters and gloves,
And telling us to wake up and go out to play.

by Jenny Miller

January 23, 2008

Wednesday, March 13, 2019


The Dove
by Jennifer Miller

I saw a dove today
struggling to fly 
in the wind.

A tan, beautiful, small dove
with accents of black, tan, dark brown and white.

She came to perch 
on the sprasley leaved tree
outside my patio
to shelter 
from the gusts of wind.

And there she rested
for a spell
until the gale had passed.

When I looked again
she had flown off.

Is it so wrong 
to perch on a branch?
In shelter from the gusts of wind in this life?
Until it is past and you can fly off again?
To find safety when you are struggling
to fly 
due to the uncontrollable forces
of nature?
Is it so wrong?


Sunday, December 10, 2017

Far Far Away from Here

(Image from a card my mom--Laura Miller--Poet, Writer, Artist made for me)
 
Written 2/24/16
 
"Dear God, make me a bird, so I can fly far...far far away from here." -Jenny--from Forest Gump
 
 
Some days we just have to call it a wash. This is one of those days. You stop and ask yourself--what do I need to do to take care of myself today?  I only have to make it through these 8 hours. There is coffee, there is a warm shawl I can wrap myself in, there is acceptance that I cannot do my best today. I got out of bed, got dressed, I showed up. Some days that has to be enough.
 
 
I think of things to cope, like envisioning a beautiful forest scene only I can see beyond the wall I face every day. I can see into this place anytime I want. And moments, the ones that become part of your soul. What are your moments? Here is mine today:
 
 
I am a young girl, much stronger, magical, and hopeful than I am today. I am with my family in Mammoth Mountain on summer vacation.  We hike up to a plateau surrounded by tall mountains that are covered in an endless sea of dark evergreen tree friends standing at attention, watching. There are clouds in the sky with the sun poking through. I venture a little ways by myself, and stand on the plateau, those I love more than anything not so far away. The wind picks up and begins to blow through my little girl soul, through my hair, through the millions of trees on the steep mountain slopes, and there is the gentle rore of the wind blowing though trees sound, when all else is silent. It is strong, powerful, it is peaceful. It is one of my moments. I will go there, and that is where I will live today.
 
~Jenny Miller

Sunday, April 30, 2017




 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
It’s like climbing a sheer rock cliff.

Sometimes there is a place to stick

The tips of my toes, no matter

How small, to hoist myself up just

A little farther to the top.

 

Sometimes there is absolutey

No..fucking…hole or crevice.

I stay stranded there in my gear

Ropes still, not knowing what

To do.

 

Repel down and start again?

Stay suspended, paralyzed,

Frozen?

 

And what is at the top anyways?

Why am I climbing this cliff in

The first place?

 

Perhaps there is no small crevice

Or hole, because humans were

Not meant to climb cliffs anyways.

 

Time to repel down, give up the futility

Drop my gear, change my clothes

and walk away?
 
~Jenny


Saturday, February 25, 2017

Life

Come as you are

Fat, skinny

Happy, depressed

Rich, poor

Drunk, sober

Sick, healthy

 

Just come.

You are invited

To life

 

To live YOUR life as

YOU see fit

 

Show up empty handed

Nothing required of you

 

To be here, at eternity o’clock

 

You will be welcomed with open arms

By the seen and the unseen

 

~Jenny

Sunday, November 15, 2015


You take your chances

You roll the dice

You might win…for now

You might lose.

 

If you lose,

What’s your next game?

What are your odds?

Even if they’re against you,

You still play the game,

If you have that itch,

That twitch, that feeling

To bet on horse number two.

 

This is life.

You have to keep betting

You have to keep playing

You have to keep planning

Your way out.

Because what’s the alternative?

The alternative is to do nothing.

And you can die a slow painful

Inner death doing nothing.

 

So you lost this one.

That’s ok.

You’ve lost for years now.

Winning streaks don’t last forever,

Neither do loosing.

 

There’s another game on the horizon

If you look for it.

You’ll live through it to roll

Your dice another day.

 

Maybe, just maybe one of these days,

…… snake eyes.

 

~Jenny

11/15/15