Freely admitting selfishness

How
can
I
make
my life
more
meaningful
short of weaving
seashells
in my hair
everyday
dreaming
of sleeping in
living the life
of a principessa
an artist
a writer
someone who
plays tennis
and has tea
with her friends
in the hours
others
are filling out
papers
and answering phones
how
can
I
make
my life
more meaningful
in other ways
where I am
right now
with the breaths
I have
that are real
and not in some
imagined
future dreamland
that may not even
exist
?
~Jenny