Tuesday, July 31, 2012

His shadow beckoned from the hall
Peter stood there
remembering his childhood
dancing around while playing in the yard
not wanting to interrupt the fun
so much so that he risked peeing his pants
rather than interrupt one moment
of the revelry
whatever impossible imaginary game he
was playing that day
to do something as menial
as retire to the
rest room

He could fly during those days
his shadow came to save him
from walking everywhere

Fly, Peter
don’t you remember you can fly?

Out the window
through the joys of childhood
where we battle evil Pirates
with our wit

flying in nightgowns
over seas filled with mermaids

the shadow does not have to be

think of when you were little
did you want to consume anything
other than sugar?
Did you want to take any magic potion
to make you forget?

Of course not
You just wanted to have fun
and it was safe

and that part of you is safe now
the shadow is the child
beckoning you from
across the hall
of years gone by


Wednesday, July 25, 2012


He knelt on the black pavement
shoulder bones pointed out
in agony head in hands
he was morphing
into something painful and new
morphing into angel or demon
monster or mythical creature
and throughout
he appeared to be many of these
who knows which he will become
until the change is complete.
I couldn’t go on
I see it now
and I stand
in the middle
with feelings
swirling all around me
I find myself here
and then the light dawns
I stand
In the middle
with me
the choices
are mine
and must be about
the path
I have chosen
the path
I consciously
in my spirit choose
do I want to experience this time
whose game
do I want to play
whose life do I want to live
it is not, and never has been
about choosing sides
I have always chosen
everyone else’s but my own
even strangers
I choose my side
this time
but that is
not quite right
the word side
because I don’t even have a side
there is just me
standing here
with liquid light paint brush
waiting to let loose
waiting to swirl
the colors
that only I can mix
to paint this picture
to tell this story
on my piece
of the cosmos


Friday, July 13, 2012

it crops up now and then
like a chronic condition
until then
I ignore it
and so do you
I sit there
drinking my coffee
lights low
in the morning
after nightmares
with a part inside myself
“This is bullshit! This is bullshit!”
In the quiet
and nothing gets done
and nothing gets said
I ask myself a million questions
I do not have the answers to
and neither do you
and I wait
and the clock ticks
into eternity
and I wait
and there are
no apologies


Tuesday, July 10, 2012

things I have learned in the last 3 months...

With every period of darkness, there is a dawn

God knows whats good for you more than you do...

If you have self confidence, no one can bring you down

Everyone is not out to get you, Everything does not
have to do with you

If you do the right thing, you will be blessed.
I have been blessed with a beautiful home,
God has put me in a special place.

If you can’t be kind and loving towards someone,
you should at least be neutral and still treat
that person cordially. It is not nice to alienate
anyone because of your own insecurities.

There is a definite reason and plan as to why
things happen the way they happen. Had I not
lived in my parents cabin for a month before moving
on to where I am now, I wouldn’t be as strong as I
am now. It was a time of extreme inner reflection
and being surrounded by the love of my family.
I am like Tawanda (Fried Green Tomatoes) now
and can do anything! After living in fear of being
eaten alive by wild animals, and sucking up that fear,
I can handle anything. Plus I am no longer so
afraid of spiders.

It’s ok to leave some things out of order,
everything does not always have to be
perfect, there is no perfect. The most important
thing to ask yourself is “does this make you feel
comfortable and at peace?” You should strive
to always feel comfortable and at peace.

Your happiness and well being are just as
important as anyone else’s.