"In my experience, it is not the act of making art that is painful. It is the desire to make something and not acting on it that causes pain. "--Julia Cameron
I went to Barnes & Noble on my lunch hour in search of "Floor Sample" by Julia Cameron. At first, the nice woman at the reference desk could not locate it. I said a quiet prayer as she checked the tables up front. The Universe (God) is good--she found it on the bargain shelf--that works for me. I put down Paulo Coehlo's "The Witch of Portebello" and agonized over Julia's "The Vein of Gold". "Floor Sample" to my surprise is a pretty thick book and should take a while to get through (I'm a slow reader) and will do just fine for now. I can't wait to start reading it---tonight. I found this great article by Julia Cameron that really speaks to my heart.
I am on a journey to find myself--to find out what it truly means to be a human, to be me, without outside impressions, judgements, or distractions. I have asked myself many tough questions in the last few days, and am in search of answers. The answers are always provided when we are seeking. I whole heartily believe this. I am looking forward to creating as a non-serious artist--but I am definitely an artist, none the less. I am so curious to see if I can set aside my "suffering" and tap into a place of beauty, hope, peace and discovery and see what kind of art and writing comes out. My sister katydiddys introduced me to "The Artist's Way" years ago. I bought the book, but never read it, I guess I just wasn't ready---but she helped me to begin my journey through encouragement and exposing me to resources to become the writer and artist I am today.