Generosity

I dreamt last night
that there was something wrong
with my heart
and they opened me up
to fix it

I feel bad
you have to do
everything for me
when you fill my belly
fill my tank
fill my pocket
so I can give it away
to creditors
it makes me cry inside
and it fills my heart

and makes me wish
there was something
I could do for you
besides love you
the best that I can
each day

and use the word
appreciate
but it seems so little
compared to the pile
that has been built up
the pile of unselfish
deeds
and gestures
next to my ant hill
makes me feel ashamed
and I wish there was
something more
I could do.

~Jenny